Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have.
Or what group you hang out with.
It's not about if you have plans this weekend
or if your spending it alone.
It's not about who you're going out with,
or how many people you've gone out with.
It's not about how many people you kissed,
how far you've gone,
or if you've kissed no one at all.
It isn't about where you live &; go to school.
About how beautiful or ugly you are,
how others see you.
It doesn't matter what clothes you wear,
the purses you own, the make-up.
It doesn't matter what kind of music you listen to,
or if your hair is black,red, brown or blonde.
It doesn't matter how light or dark your skin is.
It's not about what grades you get,
how smart you are,
how smart other people think you are,
or even how smart a standardized test says you are.
It's not about how good or bad you are at "your sport".
It's not about trying to represent our whole being,
our whole life on the interent or a piece of paper.
It's not about getting accepted.
life is about who you love and who you hurt,
it's about you make happy or un-happy, on purpose.
It's about how you see yourself.
It's about keeping or betraying trust.
It's about getting and giving second chances.
It's about the things you say and the things you mean
every thing inspiring and everything hurtful.
What your judgements are and why,
and who your judgments are spread to.
It's about anger jealousy fear ignorance and revenge.
It's about starting rumors and believing gossip.
It's about having love in your life and being able to admit it.
It's about sharing how you feel and why but mostly...
It's about using your life to touch another's
in such a way that could have NEVER occured alone













hope i could escape from everything and hide under my blanket for one day,
just one day.










p.s. ''i am legend'' and ''enchanted'' are nice la. watch watch!!

(will smith!!!! *faints*)

hahahaa

Beyond the memories.

suddenly,
i miss 3B3 so much.
how's life peeps?



sure,
you're supposed to have total recall of who won the Battle of Hastings
and what motivated Hamlet.
and you probably should be able to label all five Great Lakes.
perhaps you can,
perhaps its easier to remember that first kiss.
or the time you and your friends couldn’t stop laughing in math class.
or your locker combination
or cafeteria mystery meat
or the scent in the air when you-know-who glided past your desk.
maybe its easier to remember the thrill of passing the final
or the fun of the last homecoming game
or hugging your best friends in the world goodbye and knowing you'd be in touch forever.
but still, wondering just a little, will we always remember?







what a year.
and its coming to an end.
will we still always remember?

All i want is just a hint of hope.

firstly, gotta apologize to nen lin and yue vern again. heh
sorry banyak banyak ya.
hope you gals enjoyed.



then, about my penang trip.
the very last minute plan trip.
it all started when i received that phone call.
life's never easy and enough.
potato said its unfair that human faces death.
but people wont appreciate life if there's no death. right?
this is life.
we still gotta live with it no matter how bad it turns.
and now, its very bad that we don't even know what to do next.

heartbreaking shit.

i miss you.

i miss those days when you could still bring me in your motor to the coffee shop,
i miss those days when we could still compete eating nasi lemak,
i miss those days when all of us could still hear your laughter and stories.





mmm.
i dont feel like writing anymore la.
sorry. and no, my grandpa is still alive la, he's just sick.
very sick.

and i finally understand how it feels.
its lonely, even when your dearest is there for you,
telling you everything will be fine and to support you.
but when it comes to this kinda stuff,
its only you and your shadow.

still, thanks dear.
appreciate it alot. =)











or maybe im just thinking too much.
but it's coming very fast,
and its gonna end soon.









live with no regrets.
tell the person how much you love them before every thing's too late.









i love you.

The left out.

lol.
totally forgotten bout this tag liao. sorry louise!

and since im soooo in the mood to blog, let do it!
hhahaaha dont know. i'm like, keep finding topics to blog bout laa.

heh.








Rules:
1. Tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog. Points about the special 'person'.

gender of my perfect lover:
a dude laaa. duh!

8 different points:

1. he must have unlimited patience and the ability to accept my shortcomings.
heh you know me, bad bad attitude, and the bad temper, especially.

2. he needa be ready to be my all time function/activity partner.
sports, outings, gatherings, shopping, party, concerts, dates...... we have nothing to miss my dear.

3. he has to be there for me whenever i need him!
example, 4 in the morning? hahahaa yeshhh. im serious. and of cuz when im sad/down/emo, happy, hyper, angry, bored etc etc.

4. he gotta be supportive and honest and sincere and straight and upright and loyal.

5. clever, generous, disciplined, clean, funny, cute, understanding, noisy, active, fun, sweet.

6. he gotta be positive minded.
i get annoyed easily facing negative thinking people. look to the bright side la! everything will be fine, just believe in yourself and live with confidence.

7. gotta be taller than me and not younger than me.
taller as in still taller even when in my high heels, and young as in one two three four bla bla years younger is no no but if few months younger never mind la.

8. mature. rational.
i hate guys (and gals too) who cut/hurt themselves. oh puhlezzee la. its not like ppl will go back for you after u cut /hurt yourself. i will think cutting shows your stupidity. seriously.
although i used to think its a kind of pleasure, and i enjoy doing that.
its stupid, finally i realized that. pfft.

getting outta my mind. i miss you so badly.

:)

Love is stronger than pride.

some pics for the last post.
heh
gonna write bout my singapore trip later.


promise!






The ''Pulau'' Port Dickson trip :
(jared's teory)

me and potato man

anselm the chick and louise aka lulu
L : ''hmmmm?''

cher ming and jared by his side (sounds so gay ehh),
but sorrry jared!
the chair too big laaa, blocked you
gotta eat more and grow bigggerr man!
lol.

yeah yeah. its specially for you my dear.
yue VERN's.
lol.
random shit.

The KL grand prix 07 pics :


the big sister who helped us in, yun yee.
(the paling left one laa)
she was one of the judge.
wow.

tempat makan of the VVIP
where Agong sits, and those rich ppl who dont know where to spend their cash.
yeah, you know.

the VIP lounge

wrist band for day 1

wrist band for day 2

wrist band for day 3

The miles have torn us worlds apart.

just came back from singapore.
rained on sunday monday tuesday
means everyday laa
frustrating, but what to do?


***********

Day 1 :

left home at about 9 and reached hotel at 1 something.
had lunch and then checked in.
as usual, we stayed in the parkroyal hotel
the hotel that my dad has been staying in for the past 15 years whenever he goes singapore.

in the evening we took a taxi to the orchid road,
every where is beautifully decorated
maybe their aim is just to win the decoration competition
but at least malls and streets are filled with christmas mood.
lovely.

we just walk see walk see only la.
parents refused to gimme cash to shop.
they said i bought a lot in malaysia already.
pfffft.

and stuff in singapore is kinda expensive (if you convert)
but for now days, its kinda cheap
aiyyaaa
they're having sales maaa

the hanging princess.
lol.

ehh mana santa??

then we headed to bugis road by mrt.
yorr their country small small ar,
but stuff all lebih canggih than ours la.

apa ni malaysia?
teruk betul.
*shakes head*

had dinner in one of the mall in bugis road

***********


Day 2 :

went to the suntec city to look look see see.
haihhh

but finally, i managed to convince my mom and then she bought me 2 items.
heheheehee
a denim skirt. (my FIRST denim skirt) and a denim vest (!!)
its cheap la.
i said don't convert laaa

my dad's staff's gf, ms doris.
she's damn kind laaa
first time met each other and she gave me a silver bracelet
0.0

nice ehh?
silver 925, from Tiffany & Co.


but hor,
this poor thing fell when i was finding the present for my dear.
boy was i panic shit when i found out that it was lost.
then i quickly ran back and wow luckily its still there.
hahaah

then, we went to the Downtown East,
to visit my dad's company booth.
the decoration pun banyak cantek laa.

familiar looking thing?
its from the story : Jack and the Beanstalk

candyhouse from the story : hansel and gratel

love of every child

hugeeeee candy stick
not edible laa duh!


then then went to some shopping mall.
jurong mall, if im not mistaken.
haahah
bad bad memory. tsk tsk.
to visit another company booth.

we had lunch dinner there at abt 5 something.
then then then headed to my dad's staff's BBQ party.
for round 2. lol.
the BBQ place was by the sea.
nice nice, but this time no no sand in the food. haha
and it reminded me of the PD trip a lot a lot la

***********


Day 3 :

woke up at 12 and then had buffet lunch in the hotel.
dad told me the buffet of this hotel is famous.
and yes. it was totally pack.
luckily dad reserved a table earlier. =)
we met one of our family friend there,
and that dude cleared our bill!
wow.
guess its expensive ba.
its about SGD 70+ per person.
heh
after lunch, checked out, then bye bye singapore!

on the way back.

well,
although singapore is a very nice and clean country,
but heyyy!
life there isnt easy tau?
everything is money.
thats where the kia-su thinking,
and all the sarcastic short forms came from.


eg.

one of their politic party,
People Action Party, PAP
Pay
And

Pay

where you pay your utilities bill,
Public Utilities Board, PUB
Pay
Until

Broke

one of the highway, which the price of toll increased lately,
Electronic Road Pricing, ERP
Everyday
Rob
People

a hot topic these days because of the raise to 7%,
Goods and Services Tax, GST
Government
Service
Tax







hhaaha not bad arr.
people now days are clever.
just like me
XD





OH
and MCR is performing in singapore tonight.

its like they perform in KL on sunday,
i leave KL on sunday.

they perform in singapore on tuesday,
i leave singapore on tuesday.


bloody hell



but nvm la. me not a bigg fan of MCR.
hah

anyway. me enjoyed the trip a lot a lot.
after soooo many yrs, singapore changed laa.
and i bet few more yrs you go back to that country,
everything feels diff again.

and i see new stuff coming up liao.
people, look forward to the eyes (ferris wheel) and casino ba.
=)

















Summer turned to winter
and the snow it turned to rain..
And the rain turned into
tears upon your face

Sometimes life gets tough,
but dont worry.
cuz you know i will always be with you,
forever and ever,
till we reach our happily ever after.








:)

Dancing in the moonlight

hahaha tak tau why tonight so semangat la
actually thought of updating after the Singapore trip,
but..
hmm dont know la.
im just so in the mood right now.
hehe

so, where should i start?
hahahaha

19th - 22nd of nov,
went port dickson with potato man and anselm and louise and cher ming and jared.
okay for further info, read it from louise's blog. HAHAHAHAH
im not lazyyy laaaa, just dont want to post the same thing only.


23rd - 25th of nov,
went to the horse show, KL grand prix 07, for 3 days straight with potato man.
credits goes to yun yee for the ticket, VIP ticket som more.
hheeheh show was greattttt.
i'm starting to love horses, horse riders, chris meyer especially. lol.
anyway, 3 days straight of good food (golden palace hotel buffet leii) really spoilt my stomach laa
now i dont feel like eating my maid's cooking liao la
shit.


27th of nov,
sick sick sick. sick jor laaa
fever cough flu apa pun ada la.
dying dying.

X______X


28th of nov,
went to the club with potato man.
going club now days are just to see each other la
we did nothing but just hanging around, spend time tgt, lepak, stone, eat.
pfft. im so spoilt la.
oh but wait. we did something today right?
someone cough lost cough his cough house keys o cough!
we went all the way back to find for it
(:
too bad i was sick, sooo sick. or not we'll seriously have more fun la


1st and 2nd of dec,
aunt from teluk intan come, with her family n bla bla blaa
all the noises and books arrived
she laa. that lady has the loudest voice on earth man.
and books. damn! books.


3rd of dec,
so-called 3B3 outing laa.
dont know what happened to all,
only 7 turned up. wtf kan?
and i wonder what happened to the B3 semangat ehh?
me, potato man, suet ping, loong, cheng yeh, louise, anselm.
outing was just so so only la, honestly.
potato totally chicked out laa
we went pyramid after that, for lunch.
and i reached home late, got screwed then. lol.


6th and 7th of dec,
went back to CHS.
wow. since dont know how long ago, and im finally back to my beloved school!
man, i love this place alot la seriously.
okay just fyi, i went back for the year end labelling duty.
hahaha very dedicated, kan?
LM is so lucky to have members like me mann
so yeah to be honest, this year is the worst year laa
no ppl come for duty one. cehh.
first day was like idk, 30, 40 +, i guess? (badd enough laa)
then 2nd day was only 18. (wtf right? even worst!!)
gee.
but although the work to do will be damn alot when nobody comes,
but hey! its not too bad laa.
at least we get to eat good quality tasty delicious yummmmy food like pizza!
heheheh some more got left over oo.
or not you'll be rebut-ing for food and end up starving. pfft.
or just lousy zap fan with yucky vege and over night as-hard-as-rock rice. pffffftt.


8th of dec,
sam's party!!
she has it every year (well, last year she had it too, so i just assume it to be every year la)
and thank god this year more CHSians turned up.
heh or not like last year then cham lo.
right amanda? hahaha
the games part was lonnnnggggg. it ate up hourssss.
but overall. the party was okay la. not bad. great!
hahaha but too bad la i had to go back early.
but never mind la. at least me had fun.
and me too needa go home earlier to pack for tommorrow.
heheheee i'll be leaving for singapore tmr ppl!
wow wow! excited sial.
its beeen years since i last stepped into that frigging small country la.
since 7, right? if im not mistaken.
heh
hope i wont be too lazy to update again when i'm back from sing.
and i hope my cough n flu recovers la.
its been weeeks liao lo. haih.


thats all for now.
everyone take care ya.






p.s. jia hui will be back to malaysia in few days time! weeeee!







Quote of the day : we'll take it one step at a time okay? (:

Baby, i love you.

R.I.P.

omg this place is so dead.

o.o






never mind, lemme add some spice in it!

*add spice, add sugar, add salt, add spice, add pepper*








now, betteR?
hehehee













anyway,












































i'm back!! and im not dead laa. just sick
hey hey chill la. i know you're happy to hear from me again. hheehe
knew you would miss me like crazy ><





aha wtf wtf.
this is stupid.







and fyi,
i updated!
woohhooooo!
beh tahan see u all miss me so much la,
so kelian ><


lol