AND OH MY JESUSBUDDHA
IM DOING ANOTHER ANNOUNCEMENT TMR DURING ASSEMBLY T.T




like my first announcement wasnt bad enough.

oh oh oh
piles of homework waiting for me to complete
and the surat insaf. lol.
and IU deco proposal.
oh btw,
how to write a proposal?
lol
seriously i tak pernah wrote any of it before.
so. im lost! SOS!
and gathering invitation cards
and revisions.



o.0







revisions?









OMG REVISIONS!




i gotta go.
bye.
revisions

I listen to his heart beat
because it plays my favorite song.

today was a pleasant day.
boyf's class went back to their ori classroom. cheeers!
(:

and arr.
the first exam realy killed all my semangat la.
aiyoo.
tak tau la.
stay?
or leave?
o.0



''i give up on you.''
o.o

I woke up this morning
with a smile on my face.
I asked myself what's this for?
And I remembered you
and I thought of you.

its been raining all day.
boyf went PD to visit his grannies today.
eiyerr its our 9 months anni laa
i actually planned to give him a surprise by popping out in front of his house.
buttt.
never mind la.
family comes first right?
heh





hmm suddenly miss you alot la dear. >.<

i still remember the 23rd of last month.
it was such a bad day laa.
things didnt go on well on that day,
in fact, they were wrong, so so wrong.
but im happy today was great.

well i know i promise and apologize and thank you every month on this day.
and i dont think anything ever changed.
heehh XD
but still, i'm sorry dear.
sorry for all the troubles, worries, quarrels and bad attitude of mine
i will remember what you said in the evening.
im trying really hard and im ald on my way there.
but please, dont expect too much too soon okay?

and thank you dear for your constant love and undying support,
also your patience and for always standing by me. (:
you're the best la seriously.
but at the same time,
you're the silliest guy living. haha. dumbo. XD

i love you dear, now and always.
may all the good things last forever.

happy 9 months. <33
























p.s. happy easter! (:

La Salle IU Day!

''One world, One tune''







25th April (Friday)

Summit Auditorium

3.00 - 5.30 p.m.

RM 10.00

STRICTLY FORMAL







Who's with me?? (:

ICC was..
not as great as i expected.

i prefer last yr's. (:

anyway.
smth bad happened during the concert.
well,
smth personal la.
but i guess everyone saw and noticed,
so er.
just to let ya'll know,
everything's fine la.
dont worry,
dont panic
dont even feel sorry or sad for us.

there's always sunny day after every rainy day.





before the concert,
me and boyf went mid valley
thank you zheng kang for sending us to mid
and aiyooo i really want that necklace laa

>.<

all your fault.
grrrr

ICC!
ICC!
ICC!
ICC!
ICC!
ICC!
ICC!





cant wait cant wait. heeeeeeeee
excited shit.
tomorrow boyf's joining me and my family for breakfast!
woott!
<33

yuevern. says (12:14 AM):
hahaa. fine then.
i just wear a more formal top with heels la.
can la rght?

｡ kexin says (12:14 AM):
oh
bottomlesS?
o.0
HAHAHHA

you know i never believed in second chances.
never did since what happened in form 2.

but after all your beseech and shits.
i did.
i wanted to give it one more try
i wanted to see if things really could work out
i even secretly hoped you would come back to me.

but damn.

its getting worst you know.
its getting more and more disappointing,
more and more depressing.

you know,
i didnt forget bout the project on wednesday.
in fact it was on my mind all day.

i wonder if u really took it to heart.
seriously,
how can u not think bout it when doing it?
how can u be that ignorant?
you told me you just started doing it on thursday for just a few seconds,
but dear,
havent i crossed your mind when u first took it out from your bag or opened the pages to do it?
dont you think bout me when u see the project?
bet you dont even rmb you made the promise.

i've been trying really hard to be good in these 2 days.
i tried to suppress the anger inside.
2 days you know.
its not an easy task for me.
really.

i thought me being more cheerful could improve our relationship,
i tried.
but cant you do something more for me when im trying to do so much for you?
im just requesting a little more care.
maybe you're not feeling as how u did before after all the things that've happened.
but you wanted a second chance right?
you asked for it
cant you contribute a little more and be responsible for what you've asked for?

i dont know how to describe you anymore
disregard or irresponsible?
or just pure forgetful?
maybe you really forgotten bout it.
but how can you remember to brush your teeth or bring you books,
or do the project,
but not me?

you asked me what i really want right.
i want you to try to be in my shoe.
yes in my ugly and smelly shoe.
try to understand how i feel and see me through.

i dont think im being irrational,
i dont think its not right for me to be angry.
yes im angry right now,
did you even notice it?
do you even know how to handle me?
honestly i doubt you do.

you always say i will leave you again as i've did it once.
you always say i will end it again cuz i was always demanding.
you always call me to quit because i told you im unhappy with the relationship.
why do you keep calling me to quit?
are you really hoping me to leave you?
or are you longing for an escape too?
or are you just preparing for the worst?
or you just dont want to do it cuz you dont want ppl to think you're the bad guy who ended this 9 months relationship?

time's running out.
i tried to be patient but my patience has its limits.
i cant hold on forever.
and when i reach the line one day, no promises i made could hold me back
i thought i could go through all the shits in life, in relationships,
but i was wrong.
because when im feeling so restless and i stop by.
you arent there.
you dont see my pain inside.


and the more i expect from you, the more disappointments i get.


take it or leave it.
im not a tool nor a toy
you dont see me in the catalog
i have feelings and they're not meant to be taken for granted.
care more if you still want me.

and charles,
i didnt only fail moral.
but, add math too!

o.0
y ar i sound so happy.
gee


2 days of holidays!
and yesshh.
time to fix what's spoilt la.
hope this semangat dont just last for one or 2 days la.
i want to be good,
i want to b better,
i want to be the best.
yes i want to beat my brothers.
i have to!
Aarrrr!

and i dont want to lose.



kia su ness

Before i'm too late,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEN LIN !

(:

aw what a day.


woke up early (surprisingly) with a good mood
went to school with a good mood
waited for papers with good mood
but got results with bad mood.


alaarrr.
how can i fail moral???
T.T





wtffff

ATTENTION



ms. lee ke xin will be going kasturi starting next tuesday,
and she needs companion.
lol

cuz arr
i'm going for one subject only ehh.
-- chemistry

so arr.
anyone anyone?
(:

you know,
life's complicated.

i have so much to tell
but teach me how lahh.
how to pour them all out??



*****



boyf's coming back tmr!
my sunshine's coming back tmr!!!









(:











p.s. i love you.

以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛

想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着
你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了









你回来那就好了

and so we broke up
then break down.

but baby,
im glad you didnt turn away.

thank you for everything,
the past the present..

i swear,
i promise,
this time im going to appreciate you more,
never letting you go again.

pis of the kiss-kiss game

sorry for the late update.
blogger banyak shitty laaa
keep error-ing me. pfft.

*****

I want you to live
I want you to love
I want you to go on and not give up
I want you to live
I want you to try
I want you to know that Im alright
I want you to fall in love again
I want to see you smile again and again















i want you to come back

busyyy shit.

just came back from KL,
went pavilion with brothers to watch movie, kung fu dunk.
i know its an old old movie ald la but aiyooo.
what to do?
ppl busy busy marr

haiyo.
feels so busy la.
busy body.

pfft.

so.
movie was great.
no no i shall stop using the word great.
annoying.

err. movie was cuteeee.
heh much better.
and i had popcorns for dinner. lol

haiyooo
that shopping mall is damn high class la

felt so out of place there.

haiyoooo
boyf went redang ald la.
some more till fri only coming back
haiyooooooooo
emptyness

haiyyoooo last night we quarreled again.
okay okay its my bad.
its always my bad la
haiyooooo

and tmr ar
haiyooo
tmr ada LM gathering meeting.
means i needa go school
means i needa wake up early
haiyooooo

and even biggg haiyoooo for junah's class tmr night.
HAIYOOOOOOO


no mood liao la.
gonna shut up and upload some pics la.

the twin's surprise party.

the following pics may cause irritation and disturbance






















































































TO BE CONTINUED. (:
HEHE

take a breath, I pull myself together

after youknowhowlong
i finally am back to update my so freaking dead blog.

me, welcome back!
(:
heh


so, exam's finally over!
cheers babe.
besides add math, physic, chemistry, moral, bm
guess the others are okay laa.


went KLCC after school with darling teong
heh
just in case if you're wondering why her,
go figure it out yourself. heehhh
then boyf came. a-hemmm.
at first planned to watch movie
but la tak tau why time passed so quickly,
we couldnt make it.
some more boyf kinda insisted on attending the twins, sze ling n sze en's surprise party.
it was a very last minute plan la
i called back home to tell mom bout it and kena-ed. lol

then,
took lrt back to taman jaya. saw hui zhin.
then taxi-ed, dropped darling teong and headed to the twin's house.
merry-go-round-ed that kawasan for half and hour but still couldnt find their house -.-''
jalan 1/27, 1/19, 1/22, 1/24, 1/29, 1/44, 1/49, 1/....
dah went in and out all the jalans la
but why, why no 1/26?
why?
whyyy??
whyyyyyyy???
taxi fare went up to dont know how much la. expensive shit.
but nvm la. i won a little during the gamble with nen, sue miao, ze khan and boyf.
=)

well. party was not bad. really.
something i really would regret if i miss la.
thank you boyf for insisting la.
and i'm sorry. (:
had lotsa fun, makaned banyak, craped all night, gambled and kiss-kiss gamed.
heh and i wonder who kissed who ohhh *roll eyes*
hehh

left the twins' house at abt 10.
taxi-ed back with boyf and ze khan.


oooohhhhhh and speaking of boyf.
my bloody boyf ar,
damn mou leong sam lorhh.
he called me nen lin la.
wtfffffff



p.s. ze khan, now i dah tau where u live,
better treat me better or i'll burn down your house. lol



pic will be up soon, after i finish receiving from boyf.
till then, take care!
will update more la.




ciao! =)



to our sweet-sour relationship,
hope u get well soon la.
i love youuuu!


and thank you banyak banyak to darling teong for accompanying + being there for me.
i lovee yooo!
hee