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i dont get it.
why am i still here?
why am i still standing on the same fucking spot where you left me hanging?

damn.

im getting really pissed at myself.

march on, bitch.


***


Even if your hands are shaking,
and your faith is broken.
Even as your eyes are closing,
do it with a heart wide open.
Say what you need to say.

it's not supposed to hurt this way.

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ho hooo
last few posts were very emo larr.
lets cheer up a little.

okay,
before i start crapping,
thanks to all who cared (:
and you, thanks for driving all the way down to accompany me.

heeeeee so here i come!

''do you think i'll look hot with boobies?''

''eh ke xin arr, why do you keep changing bfs like changing clothes..''
''what. you dont expect her to go naked rightt??''

''bet your grandpa didnt have a mole like you''

''oh yeah my armpit smells great~ try smelling!''

''hubby's hotline''

''er fraternity is for guys, then, what's the word for gals arr?''
''umm. bitch?''

''a ble blu ble ble bl blu ble bluu ble''

''pfft you bitch face''
''oh at least i have a face''


hahahahahaha
seriously i cant do this anymore
there're still many many many of them la
oh oh now you know what kind of ppl im with everyday in class
hahahaha
and i tell you,
they're all damn disturbing lorr.
heh i guess thats why my life's so damn great.

lol.

wait what time is it?
cuz i neeeda watch Lee Chong Wei for ''hubby''.
heh

and did you see my new part time boyfriend?
i know he's hot.
what? where to get one?
hahahaha sorry, p & c.

kay la
guess i gotta ciao.
boyf wants to use comp liao.
oh and did i tell you we live together??
ahhahahahha


study hard during the holidays okay.
be good.
B)


`` Nyxx.

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im feeling so distracted.
you know,
you're so addictive.


welcome to the rehabilitation centre

....it hurts to the bone.

在 校 园 内,
想 着 会 不 会 看 见 你 熟 悉 的 身 影 ;
在 弹 钢 琴 时,
想 练 好 你 喜 欢 听 的 歌 曲,
在 接 听 电 话 时,
想 着 传 来 可 不 可 能 是 你 的 声 音 ;
在 外 头 闲 逛 时,
想 着 如 果 蓦 然 回 首,
你 会 不 会 在 灯 火 阑 珊 处 .

在 聆 听 阿 妹 的 << 我 要 快 乐 >>,
想 着 现 在 的 你 快 不 快 乐 ;
在 电 台 播 放 << 理 想 情 人 >>,
想 着 你 的 一 百 分 究 竟 会 给 怎 样 的 人 ;
在 附 近 << 握 你 的 手 >> 和 弦 铃 声 响 起,
想 起 你 曾 紧 紧 地 握 住 我 的 手 .

在 斑 斓 星 空 下,
想 你 是 否 也 一 样 在 望 着 明 月 ;
在 万 籁 俱 寂 的 深 夜 里,
想 你 是 否 已 经 上 床 入 眠 ;
独 自 走 在 街 上 的 寒 风 中 时,
想 起 最 亲 爱 的 你,
最 近 过 得 怎 样 ..


哦.


也 许,
我 也 该 休 息 一 下,
清 一 清 脑 袋,
再 做 些 打 算.



只 要 你 开 心 就 好
:)

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你 的 一 切 一 切,
我 都 当 作 理 所 当 然


人 是 否 要 等 到 失 去,
才 懂 得 珍 惜 ?


有 些 感 觉 只 需 一 瞬 间,
就 是 一 个 永 远.


****


death - the very last chapter of all human.

rest in peace, lady.
you've been one great person.


****


my day was depressing.
yours?





anyway, happy 4 months.

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world



the veronicas - in another life

***



if you fill your heart with hope,
there wont be any room for hurt.


i want you to be free,
dont worry about me.



***



i see a major breakdown
its coming fast, real fast.





`` Nyxx

最熟悉的陌生人。



明天，
是否还会有 ‘我们’？

依稀记得小时候，
那份单纯，那份天真，
去了哪里?



***



他们说
时间会冲淡一切
但为什么 我却走相反路呢?

时间
让我更明白了心里的那份感觉
究竟有多么的强烈..

宝贝,
我好想你, 好想好想你.

忙碌的生活 新的时间表
是否都改变了我们?

只盼我们所拥有的一切是真的.




***



sunken in the quicksand of love,
but i dont want to be saved.