hello peeps.
its been hours since i left this site.
miss lee is currently in some cc in KL.

hmmmmmmmmm.
lets see.
life's been pretty busy lately.
really.
like studies, plans, outings, meetings.. yeah you know.

oh crap.
wait.
its 4.30
and.....
i just missed chemistry class.

lol.

anyway,
physics and bc today.
didnt do well as usual larr.
expected though.
just, hoping to pass lar.
ohh godd. so meaningless laa

and hmm
somebody's beside looking at me .
shhhhh.
dont want to write that much bout him.
later he perasan ><
lol.
hear that or not.




hahahaa
he just peeped again.




enough.


want to write bout him also cant la
pai seh pai seh.
why la keep peeping.



but,
whatever it is,
i still want to say it.



heeeee



i love you dear.
yes, you.
and,
thanks for being there for me always.
me feeling less stressful ald la.
(:





and blardy you.
didnt wake me up this morning.
bluek!


X)

Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love

I want to tell you
how much
I love you

i love you.

People do things every day that could kill them.
But it doesn't mean they want to die.


At the end of the day, you either focus on what separates you...

or what holds you together.

"The best thing to hold onto in life, is each other."

and its always you -- my big dream.

every tear that falls from my eye I get sicker,
so sick inside.


the never ending issue.

.
.
.
.

yesterday was a blast mann.
thanks to everyone who wished me.
birthday can never be perfect without blessings (:

and also, special thanks to uncle lew and ah biao eugene and vinc-yuee (see i spelled your name correctly XD)
and of cuz, not forgetting secret recipe, for the 'complimentary' cake. LOL.

so we went secret recipe to celebrate.
honestly, it was my first time dining there.
also, my first time celebrating bday with them, him. (:
haha everything went on well.
didnt really expect to have so much fun though.
laughed all the way till my stomach hurts la.
especially that pair of 'gays'.
man. beh tahan.
anyway, thanks guys, really. heeeeee :D

mine

uncle lew's

vinc-yuee's

eugene's

eugene's cup of coffee which was pathetically small.
and pathetically sweet.
lol.
thanks to the gay partner.

our first pic in these 2 years.
o.o

ahhhaaaa yes yes, the gays
seeee. so see-wee-iitt.
woot!

banyak ngai arr you ppl.
ahah but really surprised me larr.
i mean the words.
XD

together we cut! X)

HA! our first victim *evil smile*

i like this pic.
idk why. heeee :D

camera shyyy

berusaha-ing to swallow the cake.
3 pieces ehh.
salute!

purposely ate the words ' i love'
lol.

enough said. (:

vinc-yuee.
he's eugene's nightmare la.
coffee pun him.
mayonnaise pun him.
ish ish.

ah biao eugene.
laughing to the glass. XD

uncle lew.
and oh myy. i went back home with the parking ticket.
guess what.
poor man kena 50bucks denda.
lol

16. here i comee!
wee~

no wonder they call it 'sweet 16'.


****

but still,
on the other side,
birthday is just another day when family comes into the story.

got screwed by dad on the way back.
damn unreasonable lor.
the renovation in my house got problem also blame it on me.
i know la lately i brought you guys alot of problems.
but heyy how can you blame the renovation shit on me?
i didnt screw that.

yeah. thats why i hate going home.
and i hate living with you guys.
well, if only i have the guts to confess.

reached home and house was noisy and unpeaceful as usual.
nap-ed awhile and woke up again at 7.
had the 'blow candle' celebration again.
cake, bday song, pictures.. the typical procedures la

BUT.
what made it different,
was the mood they're having.
the atmosphere.
i'd rather they forgotten my bday than 'celebrating' with that bloody faces.
seriously.

dinner was so-so.
purposely sat at the end of the longgg rectangular table.
didnt want to face anyone of them.
day ruiners.

****

so, its another new year for me.
i hope things will turn better.

thats all la.

no mood liao after writing bout the family thingy.
gee.





p.s. yellow man sucks. bloody credit eater.

i want to spend all my days with you..
wrestling over remotes;
playing in the mud..
throwing each other in pools.
fighting over the last piece of cheesecake.
have food fights.
killing each other over which TV show we're gonna watch.
& then not watching it anyways..
i want to piss you off..
& then kiss you.
i want you to be the one who makes fun of me..
for burning your dinner;
or forgetting to do your laundry.
i want you & me.
forever.



although we all know forever do not exist.
still. i believe in miracles (:

helleww!
okay.
imma start my post with bad news first.

my dad kept the bloody comp wire.
now i cant even on the comp
and im currenly using my bro's laptop.
its really weird. they keypad's really high and compact.
aaaaa whatever.
hmmm so, this means, less updates!
bboooo.

and he's not giving me ANY allowance.
and my savings are going loooowwww.
SHIT-ty.
i need a job.
S.O.S!

and and anddddd i fell today.
well more like i slipped larr.
whatever it is.
i hurt my back.
now i do look like a grandmother -.-
sigh

okay.

enough of the bad stuff.

so. today is the 8th.
which meansssss. its OUR day. (:
happy 1 month dear.
although our relationship is.. er. unofficial. pfft.
but still, thanks for all your efforts and patience and loveee (:
i'll be fine larr. dont worry too much bout my stuff kayy.
heee. 521.

and its been a month since the break up.
hope you're doing good.
hmmm but i doubt you still come here.
whatever larr.
all the best to youu (:

heeeeeeee and ya know what?
chan yoke beeeee's finally gone!
woooooot!
happy happy. hahaha
but honestly larr,
part of me is.. sad. and worried.
cuz cuz the new teacher is like....
hmm no comment.
go check out yourself la.
wait. i do have one word to describe her.
unexperienced.
yyuuup.

so.
wish me all the best la.
hope i dont fail any sub this time.
and hope...
everything goes on well
and hope the black society ppl get to finish their work in time
i know you know that i miss you all alot larr. sigh.
and hope i get more ang paus and cash on the 16th of may.
wooot!
hahahaa

kk gotta ciao ald.
ppl, take care!

its been a rough day.
didnt start off well,
neither did it end well.

i was sick so i skipped school.
got lectured by parents and was forced to make decisions
maybe its for the best,
but feels like a big part of me has been taken away.
parents are not to be blamed
although they were really harsh and it broke my heart.
i do hate them deep down
but i hate myself even more.

so,
to save myself from the lectures and pressure they constantly contribute
to save myself from the urge of running away from home and committing suicide
i'm letting go this one thing that've brought me most joy and memories in my high school life
its been 3 years baby.
i've been contributing my soul and strength for this club for 3 bloody years.
and now im giving it up for them.
no, for myself. my future.
oohh boy. tell me i'll get over it and everything's gonna be fine.

everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.

not.

sigh.

cant believe this is how it ends.

life wont be the same anymore.
i wont be the same gal you used to know.
its gonna be hard from now on.
its not like life has been any easier before this
well, this is life i guess.
the more you let go,
the more you gain.
i hope i'm doing the right thing.
i hope i'm believing the right ppl.
i hope i wont regret
and i hope i could bare this pain.

farewell my love. my effort. my heaven.

need a new skin!

this one is boring larr.