`` J E A N

its been a rough day.
didnt start off well,
neither did it end well.

i was sick so i skipped school.
got lectured by parents and was forced to make decisions
maybe its for the best,
but feels like a big part of me has been taken away.
parents are not to be blamed
although they were really harsh and it broke my heart.
i do hate them deep down
but i hate myself even more.

so,
to save myself from the lectures and pressure they constantly contribute
to save myself from the urge of running away from home and committing suicide
i'm letting go this one thing that've brought me most joy and memories in my high school life
its been 3 years baby.
i've been contributing my soul and strength for this club for 3 bloody years.
and now im giving it up for them.
no, for myself. my future.
oohh boy. tell me i'll get over it and everything's gonna be fine.

everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.
everything's gonna be fine.

not.

sigh.

cant believe this is how it ends.

life wont be the same anymore.
i wont be the same gal you used to know.
its gonna be hard from now on.
its not like life has been any easier before this
well, this is life i guess.
the more you let go,
the more you gain.
i hope i'm doing the right thing.
i hope i'm believing the right ppl.
i hope i wont regret
and i hope i could bare this pain.

farewell my love. my effort. my heaven.